Monday, February 12, 2007

happily ever now

It has recently come to my attention that, at least among English majors at Trent, happy endings have grown and are growing increasingly out of fashion. They are...

trite
predictable
cliche

Today our technologically advanced, postmodernly inclined, highly-evolved brains want
something a little more raw, a little more "real".
We are too civilized for hope.

But what if...

I like happy endings?
What if I want them to kill the dragon
and save the kingdom
and the good guys to win
and the prince and the princess to get married
and throw a big party for everyone
with balloons?

I think that there is something inside all of us that craves the happily-ever-after world which we have long left behind with the out-grown shoes and animal crackers of childhood. I think that we

long for hope

but we are afraid because
hope hurts.

Hope hurts more deeply and shines more brilliantly than anything else in this life, and maybe we are afraid that if we tell these stories (these brilliantly, painfully, hopeful stories), then we will become captive to the ruthless, violent beauty of our desires.

The best way to avoid a broken heart is not to have one in the first place. Poor investment, hearts, fragile and difficult to repair, not to mention impossible to replace.
I think that when we tell stories, what we are really doing is expressing the state of our hearts. Expressing our desires. I think that

once upon a time, in a land far, far away there was someone who was not afraid to hope for a happy ending

and then

the fairy tale was born.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

closure

Bring me back
to the place where blood and dirt will
wash out of my knees
where the root is
not exposed and
the leaves do not
wisper
nervous secrets to one another
something is coming
Bring me back
where there is division again
between land sky sea
because
it makes me nervous
when the Spirit hovers over these nondescript waters.
I
for one,
would like to know the
difference
between
breathe and drown
I'm only looking for closure.